Busting' Out!

The controversial topic of he day. Breastfeeding. Yes I am breastfeeding. It's one of the hardest things a woman can take on. But we do it so our child can reap the benefits.It is undeniably the healthiest nourishment your child can take in. One of the body's complex systems that man cannot recreate. It is the year 2012 right? Women's rights,lady Gaga,Gay rights the year of the dragon etc...so why is breastfeeding so taboo. No, I do not bust my boob out in public but why can't I. It,s just a boob and I am just feeding my baby. What's the big f'ing deal?? There is nothing sexual about it. Who made it sexual anyways. That's what our breast was designed to do. Why do I have to mummify my baby with a cloth to feed her.I can't even see thi child I'm feeding that way. Why do I have to go in my car or a bathroom stall to feed my kid? It is absolutely ridiculous. I find it really funny that people are all about abortion rights freedom of choice etc but when a woman is breastfeeding in public everyone gets so heated. lighten up people! So yes I will climb into my girl cave to feed my child and make everybody feel better but you know what I give props and admiration to the women who have enough courage to bust out! :-0 Peace

How do you feel??

People keep asking me how I feel. Do they want the happy go lucky answer or the real truth? If you want the real truth read on. First of all I feel lucky. My baby girl is doing well. She is precious and beautiful. I love her so. I also have a tote bag filled with lots of other emotions. I feel robbed. Robbed of Christmas Eve, Robbed of Christmas and New Years. Guilt, what Could I have done to cause my baby to be born so early? Robbed again My pregnancy was unfinished. It feels like my baby was just taken from me and I want her back. I will never get to say. "Honey It's time" to my husband. I will never have those joyous photos that people have when they give birth. I was a lab rat for 5 days before I gave birth.  Just plain tired. Tired of rushing, crying, and most of all pumping. I am on an infant schedule with no infant in my home to care for. Tired of separating my family. I go to the hosp, Alex goes with dad and none of us are together. It sucks! Last but not least I am tired of telling people what they want to hear. I feel like a train has hit me! Whew that feels better. That Is how I feel. But I will put my best foot forward and move on! I have no choice my family needs me.  That which does not kill you makes you stronger. At the end of it all  I am expecting to be superwoman! Screw that I already am Superwoman!