Busting' Out!

The controversial topic of he day. Breastfeeding. Yes I am breastfeeding. It's one of the hardest things a woman can take on. But we do it so our child can reap the benefits.It is undeniably the healthiest nourishment your child can take in. One of the body's complex systems that man cannot recreate. It is the year 2012 right? Women's rights,lady Gaga,Gay rights the year of the dragon etc...so why is breastfeeding so taboo. No, I do not bust my boob out in public but why can't I. It,s just a boob and I am just feeding my baby. What's the big f'ing deal?? There is nothing sexual about it. Who made it sexual anyways. That's what our breast was designed to do. Why do I have to mummify my baby with a cloth to feed her.I can't even see thi child I'm feeding that way. Why do I have to go in my car or a bathroom stall to feed my kid? It is absolutely ridiculous. I find it really funny that people are all about abortion rights freedom of choice etc but when a woman is breastfeeding in public everyone gets so heated. lighten up people! So yes I will climb into my girl cave to feed my child and make everybody feel better but you know what I give props and admiration to the women who have enough courage to bust out! :-0 Peace

How do you feel??

People keep asking me how I feel. Do they want the happy go lucky answer or the real truth? If you want the real truth read on. First of all I feel lucky. My baby girl is doing well. She is precious and beautiful. I love her so. I also have a tote bag filled with lots of other emotions. I feel robbed. Robbed of Christmas Eve, Robbed of Christmas and New Years. Guilt, what Could I have done to cause my baby to be born so early? Robbed again My pregnancy was unfinished. It feels like my baby was just taken from me and I want her back. I will never get to say. "Honey It's time" to my husband. I will never have those joyous photos that people have when they give birth. I was a lab rat for 5 days before I gave birth.  Just plain tired. Tired of rushing, crying, and most of all pumping. I am on an infant schedule with no infant in my home to care for. Tired of separating my family. I go to the hosp, Alex goes with dad and none of us are together. It sucks! Last but not least I am tired of telling people what they want to hear. I feel like a train has hit me! Whew that feels better. That Is how I feel. But I will put my best foot forward and move on! I have no choice my family needs me.  That which does not kill you makes you stronger. At the end of it all  I am expecting to be superwoman! Screw that I already am Superwoman!  

Special delivery! Warning this may be TMI for some people

 I am facing a dilemma that only I can fix or answer. I am usually very decisive. I take a look at 2 or 3 things I decide and never look back. Not this time. This is all concerning my baby's delivery. I had a very traumatic delivery first time around and I Never I mean NEVER want to go through that again! So In the middle of my pregnancy I have decided to change practices and hospitals to deliver my lil' munchkin. Question is where do I go. I am hoping for a natural delivery so I would like a hospital that accommodates my wishes. Seems simple right? Not so.  I also want to know that if something goes wrong I will get the best care possible. The hospital that I am most comfortable with is an hour away. Should I be concerned about that?  What if there is traffic? What if I have "false alarms" at the end. That's a lot of driving. What if there is a snowstorm?  I know I am being crazy! I admit to this but this is what is going on in my messed up lil prego brain. There are other hospitals that come close but they are not right on the money for me. What do I settle for?  A long inconvenient commute or a practice that am a bit less comfortable with? Help!!   My husbands answer" I don't know do what's best for you"   Thanks hun....not helping!!  Must decide must decide! UGH

Am I that Liberal?

It's funny I don't consider myself to be that liberal. I have old fashioned ideas on family life and I practice one of the oldest religions in the book. But the older I get the more I am repulsed By the thought of being conservative. I guess this comes from my " I will not be told what to do attitude"  If it is conservative it makes me want to puke.  Conservative fashion,politics and people who are overly conservative with their money. I applaud people who are innovative and think outside of the box. Thank God for all of the people now and throughout history that rock the boat a little. Jeez, we might as well all live in a communist country ,wear uniforms and let the government run everything!  Funny thing is that most conservative people have skeletons in their closet that they are trying to hide. Liberals...we just put it out on the table.I know that some people are going to read this and get pissed off. But hey this is my blog. If you want to talk about How wonderful plaid is or how unbelievable great George W Bush is get your own damn blog! From the quirky Greek girl perspective if you want blue hair,go for it. Gay,straight,or bi that's fine by me. Listen to music other than Josh Groban that sounds wonderful.   Live it up people! You will only be young once. You can be conservative and lame when you are 80.    PEACE!

Lovin' La Vida.

 When I was in Mexico there were various people from several South American countries. One common factor that I noticed about these people is their love of life. They exude confidence that I admire. It makes them beautiful even if they are not esthetically perfect. But they walk the walk and talk the talk. They have me sold.  These people are also so fun loving.    I am choosing to love my vida. Today I will walk with a certain swagger. I will wear the bikini even if I have some extra Badonkadonk, and last but not least I will have a party.  Just for a moment. I used up my time blogging so I just have one minute.   SIRIUS BPM radio,house music blasting. Me ....dancing.   And then I will resume the regular hustle and bustle of life.  But I will be laughing on the inside.   Have a great day!

My Thoughts On Lent

Tomorrow is the first say of Lent. I just got out of church and I am feeling truly inpired.Growing up I went to an old school Greek Orthodox church. We just did what we were told. Just don't eat meat during lent for fear of God and fear of my mom. But what does it all mean? Why do we go through all of this sacrifice stuff? Well, J.C was in the wilderness isolated for 40 days. During those 40 days he was tempted by the devil. The Devil offered him many appealing things but Jesus kept turning him down. We are trying to mimic turning away these temptations.Cleansing ourselves of all things evil. Bad food,diharrea of the mouth and bad TV. I am guilty of diharrea of the mouth. Not so much swearing. More of judgement or negative comentary. It ends today. After church, my sister and I decided to give up verbal uncleanliness for the duration of lent. This is a hard one! We joked that we may not have much to talk about on the phone anymore! So beware I cannot comment on the gossip or negative chatter. I will just simply smile and say nothing. 40 days of positive talk and positive messages on Facebook. If you catch me doing it call me on it! What are you willing to change??? Kali Sarakosti....or Happy Lent. May God Bless us all! :)

Gas Price Conspiracy?

Gas prices are climbing again. WTF?? We all knew that it would happen and it did. Climbing towards 4 bucks a gallon and they are predicting that it will not stop there. I can't help but think that the whole gas thing is a conspiracy. We act like we are in turmoil with all of these oil producing countries but are we really? Or are government officials and American oil executives laughing all the way to the bank. In an age that we have invented so many different things you mean to tell me that we can not invent and bring to the mainstream a new fuel source? I think it is complete B.S.   The rich are getting richer and the poor man is struggling to fill his gas tank. But if we introduce a new fuel for cars to run on Will these big wigs still make money? Go ahead make your money. It's ok we'll pay for fuel and be glad to do it. We need it to survive in this crazy world. But can we be fair here? I may just start experimenting with Mazola or olive oil as a fuel source.  When I succeed I will email all the leaders of the Oil producing countries the middle finger alongside with their evil American counterparts.      Peace out!!